Hoooo.....

Hey people,

THAT'S A WRAP!

Finally, we had managed to complete our poetry assignment so marks the end of all the assignments of this sem. No more assignments to be handed in. Muahahaha... A big round of applause to my groupmates for their hardworks especially Steffy for generating nearly 85% of the entire assignment. * So paiseh >.<* Cos it's apparently my fault to have messed up sth and ended up she was waiting for the whole night but none of us turned up. Then she wrote all the analysis herself. * Guilty >.<*

Not to forget about my other groupmates: Wendy, Cherry and Nevaeh. It's been so glad to be able to work with you girls. I really appreciate it.

And I whin less this sem, did I?

MERCI

So, it's a sheer bless now i am able to blog.

Had been so sick due to the dizziness that struck me for the 4th times.

And this post is specially dedicated to those who had helped me to tide over the hardest day.


Those who had sent and accompanied me to the clinic.

Those who had been so nicely taking care of me.

Those who had brought me yoghurts and apples.

Those who had offered me help.

Those who had been showing their concerns.

Those who had given their advices.


You know who you are.

                  and

this is from the bottom of my heart

                 with 

  my highest gratitude



''THANK YOU''

Our lovely little princess

" kok kok kok...''

Me: (Opened the door). Shocked. Guess who?

Deng deng deng deng. It's our lovely princess.

Princess: Erm... Wanna ask you something about the Japanese assignment.

Me: Ok.

Princess: Any idea of how to do the Japanese assignments？

Me: (Trying very hard to suppress my anger). Huh? I dont know oh. We make it like a restaurant. Maybe     you guys can take seasons.

Princess: Oh oh no, we have already taken fruits. I mean any idea on how to decorate and design  the scrapbook?

Me: ( Started pek ceking. Shouted WTH unceasingly in my heart). Huh? (again) I dont know oh. My friends  are responsible for the design and i will only cover the colouring. We havent started anything yet, so i also have no idea how they will do it.

Princess: ( Kept nodding her head. Dont know why.) I have thought of making a window with the words inside it. But I dont know how to close the pane, bla bla bla bla....... Any suggestions?

Me: ( WTH levelled up. Changing to WTF.) Maybe you can do it this way bla bla bla.....（Showing along with hand gestures).

.......

.......

.......


* The explaination lasted for 3 minutes. Eventually losing my patience.

Princess: (Nodding again.) Thank you.

Me: ( Faking a smile). Welcome. (A long sigh of relief.)

She left. My wrath remains.

Yes, i had been provoked. My resolution of complaining less starts to shatter.

Excuse me, my little lovely princess, I thought there are 8 people inclusive you in your group? And now you were asking me for help and opinion instead of your groupmates?

People, funny?

Hello, you really should not ask me for help cos i cant even provide a conducive one. Hell easy, all you need to do is get ALL 8 of  your members and find a place or whatever and BROACH THIS SUBJECT TOGETHER.

AND

Probably  advise them to be a little more COOPERATIVE.

AND

Stop being a SPOON-FED brat.

Wouldn't it be easier rather than asking nothing at all from me? =)

--The End--

ble-ak~

Had just eaten the worst wantan mee ever. Dont know what sauce did the tauke put and it is still lingering at my mouth. Ble-ak~~.

Expenvise somemore T.T

Gonna blacklist that stall.

     AND

Never go again.

Hehe.

Faith

Arrrh, I finally managed to finish Flowers in the Sky. It actually took me quite a long time to finish it but the message conveyed is a little too abstruse that it is almost intangible. Plus, I think some chapters are incoherent and I was left with many question marks after reading it. Perhaps my comprehension is only available up to certain extent. But something really draws my attention and impresses me is the author touches Buddhism in this story. It’s true that religion serves you a sense of tranquility whenever you feel uneasy.

And speaking of religion, it reminds an incident which happened last Monday. The incident begins with I was invited to a talk organized by a church. And at first I was reluctant to attend cos I am not really into the talk and ultimately I am not a Christian. But at last I was convinced and thus attended it with the hope to gain some apprehension in life. The talk was okay though I almost could not catch on when it touched on Bible in the middle. The talk was later ended with a prayer which I had a strong feeling of being swindled. Still, I kept my shirt off.

Okay, there comes the point of the story. After the talk ended, several girls approached me and started to chat with me. We had some idle talk at first but there was a girl proceeded by kinda coaxing and brainwashing me to join Christianity. I replied with a grin saying I am not a Christian though I was a bit ‘eh hem’ at that time. I guess my refusal was too vague that she caught no ball.

She rang in another 5 days asking me to attend some lectures in her church and seriously I felt a bit offended. I know your good intention. I understand probably is your onus to propagate your religion and I respect it with full reverence. And I shall tell you now I am a Buddhist and my faith toward my religion are steadfast and I feel extremely comfortable with my religion though I am not the pious one. Therefore, I suppose no changes are needed thus far. By the way, thanks to the incident, I start to appreciate my religion each day.

Till then, see you!

"kueytiaw goreng satu, tambah pedas!"

"kueytiaw goreng satu, tambah pedas!"

There go the consequences:
1. My stomach was 'blending' and feeling extremely uncomfortable.
2. Couldn't really sleep well at the night. Keep awaking.
3. Diarrhae.

Mind you, the consequences are tormenting.

I am really hoisting my own petard this times. I might have few times of stomaches before after eating at the mamak but never be this awful. I hope I need no to consult a doctor.

So, no more mamak goreng, no more tambah pedas next time!

No next time please!

Stay focus and continue writing!

But, I COULDN'T because she threw my draft away. I mean how can you possibly write without an outline?

I shouldn't have pretended so generous and kept saying nevermind this afternoon thinking that i will be able to retrieve all the information from you.

But after i got her news, oh gosh, a lots of info were missing. I had jotted down nearly two full pages of A4. And i had interviewed some of the participants. By the way, i have to admit is a very cursory work with my very ugly and messy handwritting on it. I guess that's why she was unable to decipher my writing and thus she only converted 40% of the info into her news.

Now, my other 60 percent is missing. And worst still, nobody recoreded it down. Which means it's nearly impossible for me to retrieve all the info. I am seriously pek-ceking now cause i could not recall all the info and how can i write the news with so scant info in my hands now?

I remembered i'd reminded you to return the draft to me cos i havent written it out. And why dont you confirm with me before you threw it away? It's somehow my property, isn't it?

I know you are trying your heart out to compensate but the matter now is all my efforts have gone in vain. You understand?

lost part 2

I dislike the life I am having now.

ELS has made my life so difficult. They decided to have a meeting tomorrow morning at 10.30.

That's fine.

But people, do you know my class will only start at 3.30pm tomorrow? Ok, lets oughly estimate the meeting will take around 1 1/2hours. And so can you tell me where am i supposed to go and do in the more-than-3-hours' break? The meeting is always so impromptu that it has ruined my schedule, so as my monday morning.

And I dont know how to do the budget. I dont know how to use M.Excel. They are so complicated and most importantly, I-HATE-FIGURES. AGAIN, I need to stress that I wanna RESIGN. It's enough.

People, I just dont have extra time to spend on those budget, meeting, account, activities. Even if I have, i won't relish having to spend it on them. Clear?

Before this i was so damn excited when ELS was approved but now i can feel a hundred hatred towards it. Please, i enjoy being merely a student. I mean a mundane one.

This sem is seemingly a mess for me. I have no idea what is going wrong with me especially recently. I lost myself. I could not concentrate on my studies no matter how much i have endeavoured. My mind is blank. And procrastination has got me so well. I have 3 assignments due simultaneously on week 11, and tell you, I don't even have a clear concept on what should I do. So you know that I have started none. I dont know if it is a repercusion of indolence, homesickness and distraction. But i guess it should be.

Please serve me with some strengths and passions. I can bear it no more. I am going insane.

Really.

OMG

The stupid and careless me actually did something unbelievable.

I put the pendrive in my pant's pocket and let them spinned around in the washing machine.

What happened then?

I was not as lucky as one of my friends whose pendrive was still managed to survive and resurrect. My lovely-blackie-half transparent did not possess the luck and it's now perished. My data inside are all lost. No kidding, I almost wept because it's gifted by my sister and I love it so much.

Put the blame on my carelessness and stupidity.

R.I.P My Toshiba Pendrive. I will always love you.

ROAR-ing

I seriously wanna RESIGN!

I have been so fed up. I feel burdened and weary because of the post.

No one actually told me that i need to come out with my own budget. And ended up someone suspecting I am doing nothing at all.

AND

Please make annoucement if there is any amendment.

I just wanna get rid of all this, I will be very thankful if I dont have to spend my precious time on this stupid thing anymore.

Thank you.

little updates

I got 2 out of 5 marks for JR assignmnets where the rest of my coursemates got an average of 3.5. I guess I got the lowest marks. So I've decided to continue disliking JR cause it puts me in purgatory.

Good thing is Morphology assignment's due date has been extended. Mr Wong is always so kind. *snicker* Cos I havent found my article.

And our group has choosen to work on Bilinguaism for Psycholinguistics assignments. Hope it wont bore us to death.

Well, I dont like this sem frankly cause it has nothing much to do with EL. But i do like Psycholinguistics. What can I say? We just need more Mr Renu.

All right, think gonna get ready for the 3 midterms next week.

No facebook No blogging No youtube. Hopefully.

Why should our life be this hard?

LOST

Oh gosh, for first ever time I feel how sleeping can basically touture me. Everyitme when i keep my eyes shut, the assignments start to flow into my mind. I have no idea how to start and end them.

I feel fed up each day. I feel like wanna return to form six where I used to find it obnoxious. i know it sounds ironic but hey people, do we ever learn to appreciate? Yes, only when the present is even worse.

Another thing which haunts me for quite a long time is my English. I dont mind if it is not up to mark but i cant accept the fact that it's deteriorating day by day. To make thing worse, i am majoring in English Language. We dont really speak English in class except for the time we really need to. For some times i really question if i am really suitable for the course. I lost the zeal. I lost myself.

Still trying to be optimistic despite the doubt. I do really wanna brush up my english. But do time and perseverance ever allow me? Each time i pick up my novel, the sense of guilt triggers. i should not really read it at this moment, neither blog=P. Get what i mean?


S.M.S, anyone?


p.s: blogging is a good way to release stress. Trust me.


till then, see you!

Buggie

Did i ever tell you that Kampar is terribly fulled of bugs?

My room has been the place of them since this few days.

I have been sleeping with them for few days.

I guess that is what turns me to a sleeping bug. =P

wake up, azzurri!

My age is growing and I become absent-minded each day. I supposed to watch to a world class(no?) match between Italy and Brazil at Sunday morning but I forgot.

Surfing Cari the next morning as usual and till then only I realized that I'd actually missed the match. It's not the main point though. The result was the devastating one after all.

I almost blurted out foul language. The result read 3-0. It’s not funny at all.

I expected both teams to deliver a superb performance. Hey, it’s a clash of titans. Yes, Brazil did, but can somebody tell me what had happened to my lovely Italy?

I saw a world champion is now crumbling.

I saw a world champion is succumbing easily to another world champion.

I saw an old-obstinate-stupid fellow who is still very proud and eager of his line up.

I saw a deteriorating line up especially the defense which they are used to proud with.

I saw a glowing team which its luster is gradually fading.

With the facts above, I just don’t see any chance of winning any titles. In fact, they can easily be eliminated at any preliminary round.

I miss the moment when Cannavaro lifted the trophy aloft. I miss the indestructible, impeccable, impressive Italy. I miss World Cup 2006.

Lastly, somebody please send Mr. L to introspection and come on Italy, we need more fresh bloods!

Erm...

Two days ago: Should be drafting questions for my journalism's assignment, but i still cant not make up my mind on who to interview. Nevermind, wait...

Currently: Addicted to a song called 'True' by Ryan Canberra. The song again reminds me something =P. I love simplicity. Also reminiscing Santana's old song- Smooth. American Idol's version is simply IRRESISTABLE.

Last week: Experienced my first ever clubbing. High| Happy | Ecstatic| not until the people started to make the spot crowded and stuffy. Worst still, a guy was actually shuffling in front of me with a cigratte on his hand. Okay, just imagine how the smoke twirled and made you dizzy. Seriously, The mixture of the beers and smoke around me were really making me queasy and guess what, I threw up like hell. Was i being cursed? Oh gosh, the pub called Voodoo!

Recently: The weather is freaking H.O.T and i hate perspiring. When will there be winter in here?

Yesterday: Finally made up my mind on who to interview. Have to start allocate time for assignments!

Now: Thinking what to eat for lunch| Preparing for Morphology's class| Missing home| Missing my friends| Missing didi| Missing fong fong

Till then, see you !

call me devil

Yes. I am a DEVIL.

I feel really bad and guilty.

Somes say is beyond my control. I can't do anything.

Yes, i can do nothing. I can do nothing to redeem. That makes me feel even worse.

That makes me realise how brute I am.

I am a DEVIL. No doubt.

Partially...

Yup, i manage to tide myself over a very nuts and hectic week. But, it doesn't mark the end of my semester, instead the beginning.

Especially the debate. Debating in front of 70++ people, is simply chanllenging. Stage fright, nerve are inevitable and i didn't manage to overcome it. A couple friends of mine actually told me that i was super nervous the time i was debating. I stammered and paused in frequent. I confessed and frankly, it seems plausible for me. Before the debate, i actually took the risk to be the 3rd speaker and i am satisfied with my overall perfomance even i was not spontaneous and well-delivered enough. Still, I am not gonna rest on my laurels. I have to improve anyhow.

I admit I've underestimated this course before. So as some people around. No kidding, is far more tiring and difficult than what i had perceived. Especially in this semester, everything seems so unpredictable and hazy. It's not merely assignments and presentation. We have much to deal with.

I told my sis regarding this. She believes this is what the society requires and and if this is the way to mould myself assertive and confident, i have to take it rather than just whinning.

Sounds hard. I guess i just have to strieve don't know how many times harder than others. Wish me good luck.

Till then. See you.

Hey peepz

Just to show you that i am still alive.

I know it's had been ages but i cant help. Laziness struck me lots of time. See, self-motivation is so vital.

Ok, i think nothing inspires me to write recently. I still stick with the life with tonnes of assignments, presentation, and all that.

I have again had to spend my 20th Valentine's Day without valentine. So lovers, enjoy!

new timetable=disaster

Once i was told the new timetable. I blew up.

I don't know who did the arrangement but whoever did this deserves this--o0o. See, i am really in wrath. The new timetable is nuts. I wonder if they are so desperate to drain me till death. 8am-7.30pm, 10am-6.30pm, etc. You envisage.

And plus, I can forget about going home on weekend simply because they show no commiseration to us. Especially the Johorean like me. I have class until 6pm on friday. Now you see a weird phenomena. You are the one who pays but not the one who demands. How come?

I try my very best to restrain myself from grumbling. But i just can't help. My study hours are even longer than working hours. And all those assignments, presentation, mid terms, are not yet added in. No kidding, I am cracking myself up. Both mentally and physically.

How many times do I mention this? If you really want to move, please assure that you are really in the condition to. Scanty lecturers, tutorials rooms, lectures halls, cafeteria, etc. Do you realise all this problems have plagued us so much? Do you try to fix it out? No, i don't see the efforts.

Fine, I don't think I want to proceed anymore. Or else i would change grumbling to ranting. My final word to the U--be a lil bit more considerate.

I am so frustrated, arrrrr!!!