lost part 2

I dislike the life I am having now.

ELS has made my life so difficult. They decided to have a meeting tomorrow morning at 10.30.

That's fine.

But people, do you know my class will only start at 3.30pm tomorrow? Ok, lets oughly estimate the meeting will take around 1 1/2hours. And so can you tell me where am i supposed to go and do in the more-than-3-hours' break? The meeting is always so impromptu that it has ruined my schedule, so as my monday morning.

And I dont know how to do the budget. I dont know how to use M.Excel. They are so complicated and most importantly, I-HATE-FIGURES. AGAIN, I need to stress that I wanna RESIGN. It's enough.

People, I just dont have extra time to spend on those budget, meeting, account, activities. Even if I have, i won't relish having to spend it on them. Clear?

Before this i was so damn excited when ELS was approved but now i can feel a hundred hatred towards it. Please, i enjoy being merely a student. I mean a mundane one.

This sem is seemingly a mess for me. I have no idea what is going wrong with me especially recently. I lost myself. I could not concentrate on my studies no matter how much i have endeavoured. My mind is blank. And procrastination has got me so well. I have 3 assignments due simultaneously on week 11, and tell you, I don't even have a clear concept on what should I do. So you know that I have started none. I dont know if it is a repercusion of indolence, homesickness and distraction. But i guess it should be.

Please serve me with some strengths and passions. I can bear it no more. I am going insane.

Really.