Beauty

Be it pessimistic or realistic, sometimes I am quite assertive to the point that good looking actually helps in many aspects which i cant specifically tell one by one. You figure them out. LOL.

And that you have no idea hw much times i can actually slack just to think how to make myself look a little nicer or precisely, prettier. Lunatic? Yes i know. I'd even drafted a to-do list in my mind which i seek both times and money to accomplish. LOL. No joke. I even contemplate plastic surgery wth.

You can tell hw a low self-esteem person I am by all these. In fact there were times i really lied on the couch thinking why wasnt i born with big dolly eyes, sharp nose, well shaped eyebrows and very ruly teeth! The older i grow, the more i realise how much does beauty actually mean to me. And the urge of making myself look good grows stronger because i am so inclined to what the society norm has actually educated me. I suppose i need no further construe on this statement. To make it simple, the law of attraction is probably applicable only to those with overriding appearance.

I am this clueless i knw that's why i am striving very hard to make myself look better knowing that i wasnt born with such preponderance. I know this makes the whole thing sounds even more deplorable. But wait a minute, i didnt just say you have to be of total ignorance to your inner beauty to look physically good. Of course both are equally vital. When one is in lack of inner beauty, he or she is merely an empty soul to his/her pretty face. But talking about first impression, ask yourself a simple question: how often do ppl get hooked of your credentials or personality before your outlook? Seriously i never believe in guys who say they will never care about the outlook of a girl. No, not until i am convinced to.

Maybe i overreact over this matter because there are always possibilities which i intentionally ruled out as i can hardly see them happening to me by far. That maybe also explains why most guys fancy over kpop female celebs by selectively ignore the scalpel marks and other cosmetics substances on their faces. Sole answer to this phenomenon: They are so result driven and outer beauty has its significance.

But wait, who cares about the guys now? I am all ready for the shopping spree in the town for my head- to-toe-care products. And i just cant wait to make myself even prettier. LOL.

I hope to see you guys two days later. Sweet dreams!