Something to Say

Ok, please dont kindly remind me how long did i not update.

I know i've been neglecting it. But i discover a weird phenomenon. I dont feel like blogging in my comfy home even i've got so many to tell.

I was at home when it's christmas and new year and i really wanna write something. Yes, my mind was drafting something but physically, i was mortionless. How sad!

Anyway, i am back now with my mind laden with so many different thoughts.

First of all, forget to tell that i am now in Kampar, that's why i am so motivated to blog now. But i don't see it as a good thing as i know it's merely a repercussion of being too bored.

I am just so reluctant to come back here. And homesickness becomes greater once i got down from the train.

Reality is always cruel.

I almost burst into tears thinking of every single moment I spent in my house. Lying on the couch, watching tv shows, reading newsapaper, visiting my relatives. You see how minute things can make me so emo.

And not to forget the enjoyable moment when I travelled to Singapore with my mum, shopped with my mum, dined with my family. All the time that spent with family is truly precious and the feeling is literally indescripable.

I went through my hardest moment in the last few months of 2009. I was strcuk with giddyness for two consecutive times in one month which made me almost could not attend for the MLE exam. Half month later, my brother was admitted to hospital due to dengue fever. I felt so helpless at that moment where i could only pray to repel the dread in my heart.

I guess the incidents are enough to make me appreciate the bond of family. And therefore, my utmost new year resolution would be me myself and everyone around me to bless with good health. You dont know how phobia i am towards medicines, doctors, clinic and hospital.

This semester break had given me so many things. Regardless the happy or the sad one.  I began to be less attentive to the thing which is less important. Yet i must be very careful of the fine line between giving up and giving less priority.

Tomorrow will i start my new semester. Apparently i am not in the mood yet. Homesickness still gets the best part of me. It's so miserable.

Nevermind, maybe i can start counting down for the CNY holidays and i'll get a lot better.

Last but no least, have a healthy new year ahead, people!

till then, see you!